Entry ini ditujukan kepada anon curiouscat haritu.
to be honest, i'm really happy, and touched, and at the same time, i feel like as you said, weirded. lol
dear anon. one thing you need to know about me (or maybe you already did) is that i have low self esteem, like very low. also full of insecurities. so it's only natural when i received a post like that, all i can think of is someone is messing with me or trying to make fun of me.
like, who am i kidding? me? a reason for someone to be better? just how someone could like me when i don't like myself? pfftt. haa gitu lah lebih kurang. lol
but of course, part of me really happy, knowing that someone (could possibly) felt that way about me. you know, that feeling i don't feel myself. i do feel like a loser some (most of the) times.
so yeah thank you for making me smile that night. dah la jarang2 dapat soalan kat curiouscat. bila dapat sekali puji2 la pulak. blushing jap.
i don't know what else to write. maybe another thank you. i wish you well. i also wish one day i will write more. lol
btw the entry title is a lyric from idle worship by paramore. please go listen to that song. i like that song. it kinda tells how i feel whenever someone says anything nice about me. you know, that fear of letting people down when they look up to you one time, then no more. because i know i'm that loser of some sort.
lol bye
